The problem with Edward

Whether we're talking about Edward Cullen (Twilight) or Edward Scissorhands, what we're actually talking about is the "Edward" type of man.

So what makes this Edward type?

Some people would think that it's all about the looks. Edward has deep dark eyes, messy silky dark hair, reddish lips and cold pale skin. The general features of his body, delicate to the point of being perceived as feminine, indicate a rather fragile character. In fact, Edward is much stronger than we could imagine just by looking at him and his strength comes from the inside.

Some others would think that it's all about the feelings. Edward not only experiences intense feelings and emotions, but he displays them. He falls in love madly and irrevocably. He would never stop believing in true love and this is why he is never afraid to risk anything for it. He is kind, gentle and romantic to the point of being considered naive and cheesy. Actually, his innocence comes from a genuinely pure heart.

If we sum up all these elements, we can easily conclude that what really makes Edward a self-contained type of man could be condensed in one single word: DIFFERENT. Yes, Edward is different from most men in so many ways. And I'm not talking about having scissors instead of hands or feeding on human blood. And it's not about the looks, for these could be deceiving. He may look feminine, though he triggers an incredible sexual attraction in women. He may look frail, though he's capable of great acts of courage when his love is in danger. He may look strange because very few of us can relate to his way of loving and living. This is why he always seems like he's coming from outer-space or at least from a long-forgotten romantic age. In fact, Edward strives for understanding but what is really essential about him is that he believes in soul-mates and he would do literally anything to find and keep his girl protected.

So, if this Edward is such a special and perfect guy, what's the problem with him? Why is it so difficult for him to find his happiness?

First of all, he doesn't seem to be "man enough" for most of the modern girls.
Reaction type 1: "Are you serious? Just look at him. He looks/thinks like a woman. How can he pretend to be a man?"
However, many of these girls will desperately need an Edward at least once in their lifetime, after they will have had enough of the vanity, indifference, deceiving, lust and all the other attributes of the much-adored hunky modern man.

Second of all, he's just too good to be true and after a while, he becomes boring.
Reaction type 2: "Oh, I would love a man like that. Actually, I did have an Edward once but it didn't work. You see, he was too good for me. I needed something else."
So, even if some of us had the rare chance of having an Edward in our life, we thought that he was too dreamy and unrealistic and maybe a bit too romantic for our world.

So what are the odds for Edward to find his half? Because there is still another problem:
If you eliminate all the type 1 and type 2 girls and if you admit that the very few left who might really need an Edward could be on the other side of the Earth, speaking a different language and living in a totally different culture, you can easily figure that our strange sensitive Edward has almost no chance whatsoever to fulfill his purpose in this life. Because yes, this is the real problem with Edward: he cannot live only for the sake of wealth, power, career, popularity or pleasure. All these mean nothing to him if he doesn't have his beloved one next to him.

I think what I'm trying to say is that, whether you are an Edward or a girl waiting for an Edward, whether you believe in fate or in coincidences, never stop believing in each other because you know it just like I know it that nothing else in this world would fill your heart with happiness. Most of all, nothing else in this world is worth all the loneliness, the pain and the desperate search. True love, it's all about true love, from the very beginning till the very end.

(first published in November 2009 on http://luiza82.deviantart.com/art/The-problem-with-Edward-143991948) 

Ode to the human heart

I've seen Metropolis (1927) a few days ago and I can tell you that it was absolutely mind-blowing: a suspenseful tale filled with drama, romance and psychology in which we can easily identify ourselves, even 84 years later. A stunning performance by Alfred Abel and Brigitte Helm, an epic script by Thea von Harbou and an exquisite, extremely innovative art direction by Fritz Lang. I am deeply impressed and grateful to have seen such a masterpiece!

"There can be no understanding between the hand and the brain unless the heart acts as mediator."

There is so much beauty in the world

This morning I felt so much happiness in my heart that I instantly remembered a wonderful scene from "American Beauty".

I dedicate this to my grandmother who certainly smiles joyfully now seeing me so happy and full of life.

I have finally found my happiness.
I have finally found my peace.
I have finally found fulfilment.
I have finally found myself in my sweetheart's heartbeats.
Life is happening and life is filled with elation.

"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in."

Seek your ideal foolishly

Have you ever spent a twilight in the heart of your city, on a freezing winter day? You know, just to get yourself lost in the crowds and breathe the cold air in your lungs. I did that yesterday and it was really inspiring. I stood on a bridge over the river that crosses the center of my city, with my elbows resting on the icy concrete railing, with my music in my ears, contemplating the colorful lights of the buildings reflecting on the water and the cars and the pedestrians that passed me by.

I was pondering about the film that I saw the night before: "Agora (trailer)". The main character was a woman who dedicated her life to philosophy in a time when Ancient Alexandria was suffering massive and profound changes: the conquest of the Romans and the forceful passage from polytheism to Christianity. While other spectators found it amusing that in bloody times like those a woman sacrificed her womanhood for a "purposeless" ideal such as philosophy, I was crying my eyes out. She believed in her ideal, she lived for it and she died for it. I related so much to her because all my life I have felt like this: constantly struggling to live for an ideal, even if everybody was telling me that I'm the only one in this dream.

So, the question is (because there is always a question):

"Is it worth risking everything for any ideal?" My answer: "No".

But: "Is it worth risking everything for your own ideal?".

My answer is: "Definitely, YES!"

Why? Because I need to feel there is much more to life than a mere survival.

I need to have a purpose, a higher purpose, the kind of purpose that lifts you up and allows you to embrace life to the fullest.

I want you to stop for a moment from your daily routine and ask yourself this:

What is your most intimate ideal, the one for which you are willing to risk it all? The one that would make your existence purposeful.

The one that would fill your heart with elation.

I found my own ideal a long time ago. I have no doubt about it. All my thoughts and feelings pull me towards it every step of the way. I cannot breathe without it. I cannot dream without it. I cannot live without trying to reach it and I will certainly die with it in my mind, whether I will have achieved it or not.

"Without a purpose, we would not exist." (Matrix)

I am Hypatia and Davus from Agora, at the same time

I am Forrest Gump and Jenny Curran, at the same time

I am Ada McGrath from The Piano

I am Atreju from The Neverending Story

I am Noah Calhoun from The Notebook

I am Guido Orefice from La Vita e bella

I am Paul Rivers from 21 Grams

I am Ed Bloom from Big Fish

I am Rose from Titanic

I am Marianne from Sense and Sensibility

I am Izzi from The Fountain

I am Attilio de Giovanni from La Tigre e la neve

I am Amelie

I am Joan of Arc

I am William Wallace

I never give up

Not for anything in this world

"There's someone special for everyone, as long as you keep your eyes open. Seek love foolishly, my boy, even if it kills you."

The following video is the most beautiful scene I have ever seen.
This is exactly what it should be like: unstoppable, unbreakable, uncontrollable.



This reminds me of an unforgettable scene from "Big Fish".

"They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops. And it does."



Whatever your ideal is, seek it foolishly and never give up trying to reach it.

Without an ideal, we are nothing but empty wandering souls.

Did I ever tell you that I've been struck by lightning seven times?

Have you ever observed the funny side of love?

Well, consider the fortunate/unfortunate character from "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button", the one that got struck by lightning seven times in his life and never got killed.

It occurred to me this morning that falling in love is exactly like getting struck by a lightning. You're taking a walk on a perfectly sunny day and suddenly a big stormy cloud forms above your head and a super-massive lightning bolt strikes you right in the chest: CRASH! BOOM! BANG!!! You're being set on fire from head to toe.

The funniest part of the story is that you don't die even if the flames will never quench. Instead, you keep walking like nothing happened, hoping that no one will notice you're burning so hard that you light up the night sky.

Your skin is made of flammable materials.
Your eyes are fiery comets.
Your fingers are fire matches.
Your heart is a third-degree burn wound.

Did I ever tell you that being struck by lightning was the only thing that ever made me feel alive - ablaze - alight - afire?



The English language lovers must have noticed the use of the Present Perfect Continuous tense ("I've been struck by lightning seven times.") which clearly indicates that the series is not over yet and other strikes could come at any minute :-))) Love always hits you when you least expect it. Aren't we all looking for that fire that will never be put out? :-)

Dreams of sharing dreams

We are MEN, not MACHINES!

WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS, GOD DAMN IT! OUR LIFE HAS VALUE!

WE HAVE THE POWER TO CREATE HAPPINESS!

WE HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE LIFE FREE AND BEAUTIFUL!

WE HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE THIS LIFE A WONDERFUL ADVENTURE!

1. Set ourselves free!
2. Believe in humanity!
3. Stand up for something pure and something right!
4. Start a revolution inside ourselves!
5. Breathe life!

Serendipity

When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round the moon
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

And it's time you come in from the cold.
And you know that you know.

I'm destined to marry you

The Tiger and the Snow (or true love)

Vittoria: Oh my beloved all creation overflows with passion, and like a golden comet in the sky, from my mouth bursts forth this cry: I love you.
Vittoria: I want to make love to you now.
Attilio de Giovanni: That's the best line I ever heard in my life.

Attilio de Giovanni: If she dies, they can close this whole show of a world, they can cart it off, unscrew the stars, roll up the sky and put it on a truck, they can turn off this sunlight i love so much. You know why i love it so much? Because i love it when the sun shines on her. They can take everything away, these carpets, columns, houses, sand, wind, frogs, ripe watermelons, hail, seven in the evening, May, June, July, basil, bees, the sea, courgettes...

This is the only way to love... completely...

All we need

is love... :-)

"Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often, it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know, none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaking suspicion... love actually is all around." (the Prime Minister)

Life (really) is beautiful !

How many of us are still capable of such love, kindness and devotion?

Do you remember this epic moment? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8cTR6fk8frs

For all of us who still believe in kindness

Merry Christmas!

Dirty dancing

Is there anything sexier than this?

No tomorrow

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world

The season of misery and self-pitty has just begun.

Greetings!

We - the miserable souls trapped in this world - welcome you!

Let the tears flowing!

Let the crying never end!

We wish you a pleasant stay!

Who will you be when the end comes?

The end of the world will come, sooner or later. It's just a matter of time.

If this will occur during your lifetime, you'll have to decide quickly and take a stand. So, who will you be: one of the billions of people fighting for their own survival or one of the few who will sacrifice themselves for a greater good - the survival of mankind?

I am totally certain of whom I'm going to be. For me there is just one possible path. I don't love myself as much as I love all the others. And I'm happy to feel this way. Incredibly happy.

If you settled this issue, there is only one more decision to make: what is the image that you'll have in mind right before the whole world falls apart? I don't know about you guys, but I want to be sure that in front of my eyes will flash only moments of love. There is one picture that I like in particular. It always reminds me of the simple beauty of pure love. I think this is what I choose to have in mind in the last instant of my life:

And he smiled shyly at her
And she smiled back with tears in her eyes

And he held her hand as if he would never let go

And she let him hold her as if nothing will ever tear them apart

PS You should see "2012" on the largest screen that you can find in your town. It's really impressive!
PS The photo belongs to Dimitri Caceaune. (http://fhrankee.deviantart.com)

Let me sing you a waltz

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I can't ever lose control with you

Twilight-best Kiss-Bella Edward HQ - Free videos are just a click away

I think it's my favourite love scene ever. There is so much chemical attraction between them and still, he finds the inner strength to control himself, in order not to hurt her.

Control me, Control you

Tell me, my sweetheart, in this love game we’re playing, if given the chance to choose, what would you prefer: controlling me or letting me control you?

Think about it: I’d be what you want me to be. I’d know when to smile flirtatiously or laugh childishly. I’d sense when you want me shy or when you need me red-blooded. I’d taunt you, tease you, please you, caress you, succumb to you, when you want it, how you want it. I’d play gently with your freckles until the break of dawn or I’d hurt my fingertips on the piano keys playing a passionate never-ending love song. It would be your call and I’d always be there for you. Only for you.

Or, you could let me use you, confuse you and abuse you. You’d paint my summer sky with water lilies just because I’ve always had this dream. You’d invent new words and new gestures only because I want you to love me differently. You’d stay wide awake every night only because I want you to write me long poems about the way I breathe in my sleep. You’d seduce me with your lingering eyes or you’d break my bones in a volcanic embrace. It would be my call and you’d always be there for me. Only for me.

If given this chance to choose, I’d definitely prefer to let you control me. You know why? Because I’m hanging on your love and I need to be sure that you truly love me. So yes, I would give myself to you completely. I’d be small, I’d be humble, I’d dance on your music, I’d walk on your shoes, I’d see the world in your eyes, I’d feed on your dreams, I’d fall in love with your demons, I’d even let you crush my heart under your feet if this is your wish.

Tell me, dearest, wouldn’t you love me more if you saw me sacrificing my freedom, my will, my soul, only to know the real you, risking everything only to hear you whisper a genuine word of endearment, only to feel a pure and uncontrolled love emotion in your eyes?

And tell me, love, if I’d make you love me more by giving myself to you, who’d be in control and who’d be the controlled one then?

~ Inspired by the movie "Gamer" ~