Dying With the Speed of Light

I'm getting closer to that line
     the bright line of the horizon
     where all pain dissolves.
I'm the only traveller
     flying in this dark cold night
     where no hope is left.

I'm getting closer to that point
     the vantage point of the galaxy
     where all wars come to an end.
I'm heading for this fall alone
     swimming through sunken suns
     and aching planets.

As I plunge into the pitch-black abyss,
     fiery comets start haunting me,
     pushing me towards blazing supernovas
     and super-massive black holes.
The universe erupts in glaring lights
     dazzling my teary eyes.
Everything is illuminated and boiling
     yet, blood is freezing in my veins
     and my breath turns into icicles.

I'm falling faster and faster now.

Worlds are exploding all around me
     as the smell of gunpowder and burnt stardust
     fills my lungs with dying wishes.
I scream out my pain
     but no one can hear me
     and my scream breaks into sharp pieces
     echoing back to me
     piercing my untouched hips
     my cold pale lips
     my barren chest.

As I'm dying with the speed of light
I can almost hear the sound of stellar birth
     getting louder
     and louder.

Come, love, pull the black veil of death
     over my fragile shoulders
     and smash my bones to the ground.
Split me into millions of fragments
     of cosmic dust
     and scatter me into
     infinity.

(first published in October 2009 on http://luiza82.deviantart.com/art/Dying-with-the-speed-of-light-141619863)

Format ME: ENTER

I was a free space, they were the locked rooms.

I was an open book, they were the encrypted scrolls.

I was an endless river, they were the standing rocks.

I was a compass pointing all directions, they were the settings suns.

I reached for circles, they gave me squares.

I gave them stars, they sent me light bulbs.

I was a warm nearness, they were the frozen North Poles.

I called them poetic names, they tagged me with a military ID.

I showed them never-ending roads, they lured me into dead-ends.

I was a key.
They were throwing walls at me.

A key can open doors, not walls.

So
I stop
and
forget
who I am.

Forget
the circles
the stars
the poetry
the open spaces
the endless river.

I'm not a key.
I am the walls you threw at me.

(first published in December 2009 on http://luiza82.deviantart.com/art/Format-ME-ENTER-146401927)

True love's kiss

Hold me

and flowers shall bloom from our wrists

Kiss me

and butterflies shall burst from our lips

Let me in
and stars shall fall over us, for us

Te invat pe tine

Invat sa spal distanta ca sa intre la apa.
O spal de cinci ori pe zi.
Asa, candva o sa dispara cu totul.

Invat sa apuc timpul ca pe o vaza de cristal.
Il ridic cat pot de mult si-apoi ii dau drumul.
Sa se faca tandari.

Invat sa te recunosc dintr-o lume intreaga
Sa te caut cand nu te gasesc
Sa te gasesc cand nu ma astept
Sa te astept cand nu te astepti
sa te caut
sa te gasesc
sa te astept

Invat sa culeg zapada
ca sa-mpletesc din ea poteci
pana la tine
pana la dorul din tine
pana la copilul din tine
pana la zburatorul din tine
si inapoi
pana la mine

Invat sa te vad
cum nu te-a mai vazut nimeni
sa te desfac de umbre
de strigate
de goluri
Sa-ti fac zborul lin
si inima nebuna

Invat sa uit ce-am invatat
pana sa te invat
pe tine.

FORMAT me : ENTER

I was a free space, they were the locked rooms.

I was an open book, they were the encrypted scrolls.

I was an endless river, they were the standing rocks.

I was a compass pointing all directions, they were the settings suns.

I reached for circles, they gave me squares.

I gave them stars, they sent me light bulbs.

I was a warm nearness, they were the frozen North Poles.

I called them poetic names, they tagged me with a military ID.

I showed them never-ending roads, they left me dead-ends.

I was a key.
They were throwing walls at me.

A key can open doors, not walls.

So
I stop
and
forget
who I am.

Forget
the circles
the stars
the poetry
the open spaces
the endless river.

I'm not a key.
I am the walls you threw at me.

Love after love

by Derek Walcott

"The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life."


I found this beautiful poem on the foreword of the novel "The Time Traveller's Wife", written by Audrey Niffenegger. I can't wait to read the book!

Fara tine - Ana Blandiana

"Fără tine mi-e frig
N-am înţeles niciodată
Cum simte aerul
Că ai plecat.
Universul se strânge
Ca o minge plesnită
Şi-şi lasă pe mine zdrenţele reci.
Câinele negru
Cu burta întinsă duios pe zăpadă
Se scoală şi se îndepărtează
Privindu-mă în ochi,
Refuzând să-şi spună numele.
Începe să fulguie.
Mă ustură pielea
Pe locul de unde te-ai rupt.
Şi mi-e frig,
Când simt cum cade moale,
Odată cu zăpada,
Această rugăciune către nimeni."

There is no escape from here... There is nothing left to live... It's the end.

Esti liber sa pleci

Nu
Nu am sa primesc acest inel
Intelege-ma: te iubesc prea mult ca sa te leg de mine
Te vreau fluture liber
Te vreau pasare in zbor
Te vreau zambet naiv de copil

Nu
Nu am sa primesc aceasta promisiune
Crede-ma: am sa te iubesc
Fara legaminte
Fara noduri
Fara corzi

Da
Am sa accept iubirea ta doar asa – in libertate:
Liber sa pleci (departe de mine)
Liber sa cauti (altceva)
Liber sa fugi (in alta inima)
Si totusi,
Alegand sa ramai

Pentru ca ochii tai sunt
orbi
fara mine

Pentru ca sangele tau
curge
prin venele mele

Pentru ca tu
nu stii
decat numele meu.

You're my high, baby

~ Common dialogue between two lovers ~

Sweet darling
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't bear for you
For you're my high
Baby
You're my sky

Sweet angel
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't dream for you
For you're my starry night
Love
You're my shining light

Kiss me, darling
Let the healing begin
Let the spinning never end
And never leave me
Baby
Never leave me

I'll kiss your rose lips, angel
I'll wash your tears away
I'll make you whole again
And I'll never fail you
Love
I'll never fail you

Hold me, darling
Hold my life in your arms
Hold me like you can't breathe without me
And never break me
Baby
Never break me

I'll hold your fragile ankles, angel
I'll hold your knees and your wrists
I'll hold your sky and your earth
I swear
I'll breathe your air
I'll eat your words
I'll drink your fears
I'll watch your smile rising in the morning
I'll carry your heart in mine
Just never doubt me
Love
Just never doubt me

I'll never doubt you, darling
Just keep on kissing me
Just keep on spinning me
For you're my high
Baby
You're my sky

Dying with the speed of light

I'm getting closer to that line
the bright line of the horizon
where all pain dissolves.
I'm the only traveller
flying in this dark cold night
where no hope is left.

I'm getting closer to that point
the vantage point of the galaxy
where all wars come to an end.
I'm heading for this fall alone
swimming through sunken suns
and aching planets.

As I plunge into the pitch-black abyss,
fiery comets start haunting me,
pushing me towards blazing supernovas
and super-massive black holes.
The universe erupts in glaring lights
dazzling my teary eyes.
Everything is illuminated and boiling
yet, blood is freezing in my veins
and my breath turns into icicles.

I'm falling faster and faster now.

Worlds are exploding all around me
as the smell of gunpowder and burnt stardust
fills my lungs with dying wishes.
I scream out my pain
but no one can hear me
and my scream breaks into sharp pieces
echoing back to me
piercing my untouched hips
my cold pale lips
my barren chest.

As I'm dying with the speed of light
I can almost hear the sound of stellar birth
getting louder
and louder.

Come, love, pull the black veil of death
over my fragile shoulders
and smash my bones to the ground.
Split me into millions of fragments
of cosmic dust
and scatter me into
infinity.

Se varsa octombrie

Plouă octombrie
pe umerii mei goi.
Plouă octombrie
şi mi-e-aşa de frig
că mi-au amorţit gândurile rămase
nerostite.

Inspir parfum
de frunze strivite
sub tălpi însingurate
iar pielea-mi miroase
a roşcove ude
şi-a pământ putrezit.

Toarnă cu semne
de disperare
şi vârfuri de umbrelă.
Toarnă cu vârfuri de umbrelă
iar oasele-mi sunt frânte,
buzele rupte,
şi inima străpunsă.

Se varsă octombrie
pe pieptul meu ruginit.
Se varsă octombrie
şi mi-e-aşa de toamnă
că mi s-au sinucis fluturii
din vene.

Mi-e-aşa de toamnă
că mi-ai murit în pantec
Când peste noi
se vărsa octombrie...